Early New Year’s resolution
Wednesday, November 11th, 2009 at 4:31 pmI need to stop blowing up like a fugu fish at people who annoy me. Really. I never used to do it, but it’s happened three times in the past year (twice with the same person, over whom I came close to throwing a margarita). I’m normally pretty mellow (I think), but recently, when I’m a couple of days out from my period, I seem to get macho — not exactly aggressive, but definitely aggressive in defense. Keeping my size in mind, I get like one of those little yapping, scrappy dogs.
I’m wondering whether this is just some new item on the hormonal smorgasbord, or if it has to do with four years of living in Thailand. Have I gotten so used to the softly-softly local manners that I’m losing my ability to deal with more forceful Westerners? Or is the effort of being softly-softly more of a strain than I realise, so that (not so) deep down I’m spoiling for a good old fight? Am I just turning into a bitch, and this is only the beginning…?
Particularly, I get aggro at women who lecture me. Or who I think are lecturing me. I don’t much like men who lecture me either, but I tend to reason with them or at worst be more snide, whereas I outright lose my temper at other women. They say that we dislike in others what we secretly dislike in ourselves, so maybe I’ve been lecturing other people, and I didn’t realise it.
Ack. I try to keep the soapbox here and only here.
Really, I feel like such a douchebag.
So. No more squirting up other people’s vaginas. (There’s been so much talk of penises around here lately, I think it’s time to mention vaginas. The next post might also be vagina-themed, just to properly balance things out.)
November 11th, 2009 at 5:45 pm
The softer manner would probably be playing the biggest part in this. or you could beleave my theory.
I think we all have a secret hate for the Vagina. think about it.
For 9 months it is our holding cell.
most life on earth starts out as a female and during the developmental stage then “Mighty Cock” Distroys the temple of womanhood.
Thus showing that man can be on the reciving end of an acid tounge because we have forced ourselves go grow and not internalise ourselves physically.
as for emotions those things are for women and people with no beards.
November 11th, 2009 at 10:39 pm
But I’m sure I love the Vagina. I think the Vagina is awesome. Not perhaps as awesome as the Clitoris, but still awesome.
So it must be the softer cock. I mean, softer manner.
I should really try to lift this blog out of the gutter…
November 12th, 2009 at 7:42 am
I’d imagine that living among people who have more passive (if that’s the correct word) mannerisms would wear on one’s nerves after awhile.
And the Vagina is awesome. Sometimes annoying, but primarily awesome. Not to mention that even with one’s period it causes considerably less emberassment than a penis.
As for the blog being in the gutter, it could be worse places. And you find interesting stuff in the gutter too. Or I used to when I was a kid and floating leaves down drains was a primary source of amusement.
November 12th, 2009 at 5:32 pm
Three times in a year? I get pissed off many times a day. “Your anger is a gift,” is what Zack de la Rocha said in a Rage Against the Machine song (don’t know if there are any Rage fans here, oh well), and that is true, its just how you channel it. Me, I channel all my aggression into my music and writing, just like I channel any emotion into those two art-forms. Although I am known for not overreacting. Not to the point of complacency, though. I just give a little kick in the cunt, penis, or (if lacking those), a little kick in the ass in my stories and music.
November 13th, 2009 at 8:44 am
But I like it here in the gutter! It’s so warm and comfortable!
November 13th, 2009 at 12:37 pm
Steampunkgunslinger – Honestly, at a conscious level, I like the good manners and non-confrontational style of everyday interactions here. But maybe my subconscious has a different opinion. Or it could be that I’m so used to not getting angry that when I do get angry it takes me by surprise like a runaway horse.
Did you hear the joke about Adam and Eve? God made Eve first and took a lot of trouble tucking everything away and making it look nice on the outside. He was so tired when he got to Adam that he just slapped it all on the front any old how.
Mike – Ranting, narcissistic nutjobs don’t deserve kind words — but I was embarrassed that I actually lost my temper, as opposed to just being calmly mean or coolly sarcastic or any of the things one would hope to be in that situation. The little kick in a nether region is a much better option. I tend not to channel aggression into art very much, perhaps because I tend to find the visual outcomes unappealing. I’m awfully fond of tranquillity. Into writing…sometimes. I find it quite a challenge to make anger work aesthetically, but sometimes I think a particular piece of anger is worth the effort.
Caitlyn – verily, the gutter is as warm and cosy as a vagina.